Have you ever been profoundly present to life’s all? So present to each moment, both internally and externally, where you were fully alive and fully aware? I had the most captivating experience driving downtown, off to visit a friend.
A Gracious Shower of Many Feelings
Driving on Georgia Street in Vancouver to visit a friend across town, I was injected divinely through the heart understanding my humanness. I felt surges of various feelings showering me every few seconds, dissolving as quickly as they came, as I drove towards Burrard and Howe Street. The feelings of being swayed hither and thither felt like I was being played in a pinball machine, yet there was a graciousness about it. I being the ball, very conscious and present of these hits of feelings piercing through my body.
Allowing the Feelings to Go As Quickly As They Came
The surges of different feelings are part of life and part of being a sentient being, as we all know. They can take us for a ride either down hill or up. We have the choice on the direction, and how long we want to be with them. Experiencing these feelings, the complete presence of them, and understanding how they come and go so quickly doesn’t always make the process of moving through them easy. However, feeling this abundant presence was not about controlling anything; it was about being profoundly present, being completely open, and being aware. It was like a stream flowing through me, in and out, and all around!
The Tug and Pull Of Emotions
As I drive, I’m happy, smiling, and enjoying the scenery of the bay, Coal Harbor, and the morning sun. I look to the left and see a homeless person sleeping on the cold concrete, huddled under a thin blanket and under a door way leading to an apartment building. My heart sinks with sadness. I look to the right and see a flower shop owner opening up the shop, one hand with a plant to hang out side and another hand full of seed spreading them on the ground to feed the pigeons. My heart elevates to joy. I look back to the left, a few blocks up, and notice a young boy, I’d say about 19 or 20, fidgeting, twitching – on street drugs – looking intently at the ground for something as he was walking. My heart sinks to emptiness and loss. I turn around the corner onto another street aligned with beautiful trees with their leaves glistening from the morning sun. My heart fills with gratitude. Back and forth my feelings fluctuate – a tug and a pull – profoundly present to life’s all.
Life Is About Experiencing All Emotions
It was the most intense yet gracious experience I had, being this profoundly present. Life isn’t about one emotion and getting stuck in it; it’s about being present to all of them and allowing them to flow. Each moment is going to give you something different. There is nothing you need to hold on to or control. You just need to keep experiencing.